With a smile like that you could bring us to your knees.
its such a shame its miss used to fill the empty eyes that need a reason to keep faith.
your lying to us again painting a blindfold across our eyes.
isnt it time you woke up now and brushed the cobwebs away..open your eyes and watch this world crumble before your feet.
im not gonna take this on alone.
this apocolypse is ours.
make this ur last mistake and final regret to tell your children in years to come, how for the rest of your life youve become naive and mislead into things that hurt the ones you love most.
tell them what youve become.
and show them that you care, enough to
all the heros inside my story, are the enimes in disguise
all the innocent little children, hold dirt behind their eyes
the ending isnt happy and the story line isnt fixed
is a perfect fucked up memory, with a personl saftey kit
to read to each of your siblings, creating images inside their heads
so each second they grow older, tightens up the thread
which seperates the sane from every other being
all of them hold memories, that are eating at the seams
of the hidden bits inside, that retreated underneath their skin
that one day spontaniously with curroupt, everything within
causing pure eyes to see the underoath, of living breathing
Kill me now with a thousand deaths
Save my lungs from this final breath
Strip my veins and prolong this death
Its over now
There's nothing left.
A mind made up with a thought so clear
Coming to an end now there's nothing to fear
With one last sob falls a blood-soaked tear
Its over now
My time is limited here.
My last source of faith
Is now punishing me.
My last source of faith
Is the reason I bleed.
Alone in my head
Another empty room
Return me back
To the peaceful womb
Where troubles were unknown
And tears were untouched
So pure to the world
But now so fucked up
My head holds these images
Of a broken down girl
Cont
Reach into the air and steal the eyes
That sees these clouds that hide the sky
No sleep tonight its time to fly
I hold my breath but remain alive.
I hold my faith in between my eyes
Fuck my heart it schemes and lies
My veins fill up and begin to rise
Wait for me on the other side.
Never mind, never mind
Everything with be okay
All in time, all in time
Things will work their way
And still I scream
With one last breath
That's keeping me alive
Till there's nothing left
My face so pale
Hold my hand while I die
I love you too
Don't forget to write
You know death can be lonely
Come join me in my bed
In my paradise
Were everybody's dead
Since when did bleeding become so real
I have practiced the art of pain
And live son my veins of steel
The signs that once appeared to me
so clearly in my mind
That now I refuse to believe in
Has now vanished from my sight
But everything is fine
These images have left m
From the seconds of the beat
From the heart that ticks
Not another recollection
Of the scars that stick
Pull your finger from the trigger
It's too soon to choose
Tense and suspension
With nothing to loose
Remember the cracks within the bone
So many Suitable surfaces to fuck upon
Too many digits
That spread the ink
Suspended chapters
So little room to think
Sidetracked from kisses
They wake it up
Another gentle hand
with a softened touch
Bite my neck
And kiss the rose
Bleeding petals
that started to grow
Remember the sight of the distant dreams
Harder, faster, with imitated screams
Leave me lonesome
Upon the sheets
a
ladies and gentlemen now introducing
a once in a life time experience
never before seen act
production of time and perseverance
the heart and soul of an act
the tearful eyes and shaky limbs
motionless steady with the crowd
waiting from the drumroll to beging
slowly stepping out onto the platform
ready to take spotlight
closed eyes and deeper breaths
innocence victimised
stretch and reach out for the line
inhale the poisoned air
the climax of her life
in every eye a focused stare
wrap the rope around her tight
a single mistake could cost
lift up and climb this act
a firm grip suddenly lost
the lights steady are blinding
ta
Another Glance at the surrounds
The bible of lies
close this chapter
dry your eyes
the cuts that healed
used and returned
the scars that faded
begin to burn
nothing perfect stays
another knot in the rope
slice this thread
let me choke
pinned by chains
pair up these eyes that bleed
my pretty patterns
beneath my sleeves
hold my tongue
im spitting knifes
deadly blades
Schemes and lies
The hands that held
Her dreams up high
let her go
And slowly die
Torn up wings
This angel's bound
Down on her knees
Pleading ground
another page
rigged and torn
Behold this day
Another whore is born.
Thought about it, tried it, it got me nowhere
Knew it was wrong but I still didn't care
my cut, my tear, my pain, my fear
Hear these voices deep in my head
Suicide is the answer id be better off dead
Denied my wisdom and I toke my pride
Caused self scares that I then had 2 hide
Looked at my blood and then tasted the pain
Intake an output with out soul there's no gain
runaway from my mistakes and lies
fed up with all these worthless tries
im never goin to be what you need!
im never gonna be what i want to be!
see this blade see my wrist
push me over the edge i swear ill do it!
just give me a reason thats all it will take......
'Im the part of you that you locked away'
Always hidden inside never having a say.
Listen to me, listen to to me, don't make me shout.
Im the fucking part of you that u shut out!
The crimson blood dripping from my veins
Do u rilly have a reason to do this? What the fuck do u gain!
Does make u feel special, do u want to be real?
Cutting Ur wrists just 2 confirm you can feel?
Time wont give u a reason and neither will I.
What makes u think its easier 2 die?
The pain of Ur wrist tha u slit with the knife?
Or the shame of being able 2 have your own life?!
Deceased 2 the world and my words unspoken
lifeless inside and still so broken.
im just 2 fucked up and outa my mind, to realise that iv been fucked up to many times.
to fucked up 2 notice and selfish to care, you standing there, do you have 2 stare?
yes im fucked up, yes im a prick, you want a sample to prove it ? or a rumour to spread shit ?
i choose the way i live, the way i die, the crack i buy, the things i hide.
yes im fucked up becoz of this shit, answer me 1 question....
what the fuck do u have 2 do wid it ???........
everyone dies in the end......
everyone lives, everyone dies, wasted lives of untold lies.
waiting for my time, till im gone, wasting my time, till i belong.
lived unloved, held but untouched, all the lonlyness was just to much.
waiting for my time, till im gone, wasting my time, till i belong.
slowly drifting away, no objections, i wont stay.
coz i was never, one of you, i will never be, one of you.
my broken promises, ended to well, hidden secrets, ill never tell.
waiting for my time, till im gone, wasting my time, till i belong.
fading away, hide me from shame, after all, im to blame.
give me my wings and tears to cry, open my coffin, im ready to die.
waiting
only she, could kiss my lips, drain my blood drip by drip.
only she, could hold me tight and take me away into the night
only she, could speak the words, and by only me they would be herd
only she, could stop this pain, and with her eyes, drive me insane
only she, could have my heart, while deep inside im torn apart
only she could have my soul
only she would have my love
only she should take me whole
only she can drink my blood
she is mine, forever forsaken......
she is my soul the leader of the dead........she is my......
thought my dream................she is my.......................
............................................
she stands there, i cant do anything to help her, all i can do is cry, she has be hurt to many times before.
she hides in the shadows, confuzed by what she sees, turns her head and glaces, but there is...is me.
i hold out my hand, try to shield her from the pain, shes been hurt too many times before, i wont let it happen again.
tears is all i can see, running down her cheek, she is torn on the inside, and all there is left is me.
she cant seem to find the cure for whats causing her to hurt, i cant walk away from her.....
if i just opend my eyes then i wouldnt be so blind
if i just made a differnce to her, so i could take it all away
fe
im so tired of feeling like this, i just wanna give up, give in.
my mind playing with my feelings thats still held within.
drown me in my tears, just take it all away.
empty thoughts of something. silent whipsers of nothing.
lost words of sympathy, echos in the wall.
to mindless to notice me slowly, as i start fall.
crying myself to sleep.
deadly thoughts that cut so deep.
the torture of the empty tears i cry.
i still continue to ask myself....why.
i prommise i wont do anything...................just take it all away....
when i was on the edge, she pulled my back in.
so many ways to thank her, where do i begin.
i started 2 lose my way, and once again began to fall.
she herd my cry, she answerd my call.
when i needed 2 talk to someone, or just need someone there.
she came to my side like a sister, i was curled up in her care.
my mind became deseased, i couldnt think straight.
thinking wierd things, again began to hate.
talked me through it, helped me once again.
so many ways to thank her, where do i begin.
thank you..........................................for everything.
i cant remember the last time i felt fine.
when the emotions i held were really mine.
im getting cold now, its been a while.
its getting old now, forgetting how to smile.
i just need to runaway from you.
i thought i helped you, what am i suposed to do ?
obviously my words ment nothing, and obviously i dont mean something.
i gave you anything i would, everything if i could.
but it all came crashing down. im worthles, what happens now ?
i try to hide. everything i seem to do falls apart.
i try not to cry, but inside is an empty call from a broken heart.
if i could i would runaway.
iv said everything that i could possibly say.
did i
New poems with differnt styles, rhyming ect.
New friends. [ amazing friends ]
New life.
New self.
Goin 6th form and getting on with life in september.
working everything out.
Making friends with past enimies.
keeping life at a balance.
Everything is amazing at the moment, christ last entry was Dec 21st!!
HAVE AMAZING SUMMER HOLS PPL!
[ i know i will ] x
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i just thought id wish you all a great xmas! and enjoy yourselfs! get drunk!! wooo...hehe i know i will be..
and also i love you all! yes, and i duno where id be without you guys. merry xmas my ikle mofo's!
xxx
well....first off i dnt mem a damn thing about last night apart from randomly realising that i was actually at a gig and all i mem was urm...well insisting a operator in the phonebox gives me a free pineapple :S ...oh dear. cher..we really coulda done with some help hahahaha it seems so much less painful knowing sum1 was gonna catch u when u fell...even tho falling at the time seemed so numb...hmm....YOU SHUD SEE THE BRUISE!! oh my... newho i need sum1 to fill me in...i dnt erm mem much of it and im sure i made a prat of myself like typical...but hey u never know.
xxx